"POTENTIAL"

**pain is guaranteed, but struggling is an option.**
so i've played softball ever since 6th grade, off and on due to injuries, but i still always played. but, i've come to realize and admit to myself that i am just noo good! i love the game and the feel of your surroundings, the sounds, the sights..i love it all. this is why i decided i wanted to be the baseball manager this year. however, dreams don't always come true. sometimes you've got to work really hard just for the very minimum that can be recieved. here is my story...
....i went in with my hopes high in thinking i would be a great addition to the team, well sort of. but, right off the bat, i was shut down. all my hopes flew out the window. :( maybe i don't look dedicated, or "fit for the job" but, you really can't judge a book by its cover. maybe if someone would have showed interest in taking the time to actually listen to what i had to say, we would have gotten somewhere. instead, we are going to have to start off on the wrong foot, all because i don't look all.."hard core". you know, when you tell someone that they don't have the potential to do something, it only drives them to work harder to show you and prove you wrong!.
now...as much as i really truly want this, i am working towards my goal, and that is mainly focused on just proving those who don't think i have the "potential" wrong. so wrong that they will realize just how wrong they were to assume so horribly of me and then want me as their baseball manager after all..and in the event, depending on my mood, i may just deny the plea.
or maybe, in the time of all my anger, he knew that telling me i couldn't do it would drive me closer to showing that i can..then again, i don't think my thought process works the same as his.. i guess whatever happens happens and its for the best. or maybe, mistakes will be made and lessons will be learned from them in the mean time. second chances? yes, i do believe. for the sake of you and me both.
<3 Payt.