Poof

Some days are harder than others. There are days when you can wake up in the morning with a smile on your face because you know that you've got something amazing happening. Other days, its really hard to even look at the clock and check the time because you want nothing more than to simply lay in bed with the covers over your head in peace. These past few days have been more like that for me. I would rather just sit and stare at the wall, thinking about what I could to do fix what a mess my life has become, instead of facing more troubles I know the day will provide me with. It's pretty easy to give up. If you ask me, I'd say I probably give up 90% of the time. I give up on eating breakfast, I give up on trying to finish my homework on time, I even give up on getting my hair to look just the way I want it. I give up so easily. But giving up, its not one of those things i choose frequently. It's almost like a fight to the death. Me against the challenge I have opposing me. I fight and fight with all I have until I can no longer hold the shield I have against my chest, or swing the sword I have in my hand. That is when I accept death. Accept that I can no longer fight, and let the dragons fiery breath take me in.

In my head, this is death. It's almost as if nothing we have ever been through could be this bad. We all know what this "death" feels like too. Because, admit it, you give up just as much as I do. Sometimes we choose the battles we know we can't win, just for the sake of saying we fought. But how long can we keep this up? How long can we keep going into battle, and end up coming out on the losing side? How many times does that dragon have to overcome our strength for us to realize, he doesn't have to win?

Poof. That thought you just had in your head about never having the ability to win your battles, is gone. That memory of that last losing battle, poof, no longer in your mind. Because right now, you're considering something you've never thought twice about; winning. You CAN win. You can defeat that dragon, all on your own. Take a moment to yourself right now. Take just a second to just put yourself in that arena, surrounded with fans cheering you on. They all know you can win this, they all know you can do anything. So you fight, and you win. And you have never felt so successful, so achieved, so proud of doing something you never planned on doing. If you would just take that little moment each day to remind yourself how great you are, then poof, everything else is gone. All the negative, all the little dragons in your head. And then tomorrow morning, when you wake up, you won't even have to second guess what the outcome will be, because you've got your shield and sword right on your bed stand. 
Have a great day friends.
Love, Payton.